9/29/12

Omega

What a skeletal wreck of man this is.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,
the kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic tomes.
Running rampant with free thought to free form, in the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a
laundromat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,
virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems are ripped
from the branches of office, do you know what your post entails? 
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
Wind in doubt inside your atavistic allure, the value of a summer spent, and a winter earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week the reeks of rest, but all we do is catch our breath,
so we can wade naked in the bloody pool, and place our hand on the big, black book.
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching fingers.
A vacation is a countdown, T-minus your life and
counting, time to drag your tongue across the sugar cube,
and hope you get a taste.

WHAT THE FUCK IS ALL THIS FOR?
WHAT THE HELL’S GOING ON?
SHUT UP!

I can go on and on, but let's move on, shall we?

Say, you're me, and I’m you, and they all watch the things we do,
and like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs,
haven’t felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse... Let me go,
and plunge me into the dead spot again.
That’s where you go when there’s no one else around,
it’s just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with their thumb on the pulse,
and a finger on the trigger.

CLASSIFIED MY ASS! THAT’S A FUCKING SECRET, AND YOU KNOW IT!

Government is another way to say better…than…you.
It’s like ice but no pick, a murder charge that won’t stick,
it’s like a whole other world where you can smell the food,
but you can’t touch the silverware.
Huh, what luck. Fascism you can vote for.
Hmph, isn’t that sweet?
And we’re all gonna die some day, because that’s the American way,
and I’ve drunk too much, and said too little,
when your gaffer taped in the
middle, say a prayer, say a face, get your self together and 
See what’s happening.

SHUT UP! 
FUCK YOU!
FUCK YOU!

I’m sorry, I could go on and on but
it's time to move on so... 
Remember: you’re a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, your just nature.
Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned; shit snort,
and blaspheme; let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do, is just everything we’ve done.

Stone Sour

9/20/12


Rick Du Boisson


9/19/12

Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be 
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit

Stone Sour

Black Swan

What will grow crooked, you can't make straight
It's the price you gotta pay
Do yourself a favour and pack you bags
Buy a ticket and get on the train
Buy a ticket and get on the train

Cause this is fucked up, fucked up
Cause this is fucked up, fucked up

People get crushed like biscuit crumbs
And laid down in the bitumen
You have tried your best to please everyone
But it just isn't happening
No, it just isn't happening

And it's fucked up, fucked up
And this is fucked up, fucked up
This your blind spot, blind spot
It should be obvious, but it's not.
But it isn't, but it isn't

You cannot kickstart a dead horse
You just crush yourself and walk away
I don't care what the future holds
Cause I'm writin' out today
With your fingers you can touch me

I'm your black swan, black swan
But I made it to the top, made it to the top
This is fucked up, fucked up

You are fucked up, fucked up
This is fucked up, fucked up

Be your black swan, black swan
I'm for spare parts, broken up

Thom Yorke

9/17/12

One's Title

The Conscious Cataclysm 
An Apperception Of I

Conscious:
Aware of one's own existence, sensations, thoughts,surroundings.
Fully aware of or sensitive to something.
Having the mental faculties fully active, and aware of what one is doing.

Cataclysm:
Any violent upheaval.

Apperception:
Conscious perception.
The act or process of apperceiving, or perceiving.
The manner in which we receive a thing into our minds.

The Conscious Cataclysm is a place where I can share the things I'm feeling and what I'm learning about myself. Who I am, and why I'm here. My impressions are often cryptic, coming slowly and quietly, brought on by poems, song lyrics, or artwork. Other times; however, my feelings come quickly and violently brought on by a painful memory.



Emotion regulation is a big part of my life. In order to do that I have to first identify the prompting event, my interpretation of the prompting event, and the emotion it creates. I also have to watch the action urge the emotion causes. Every impression that comes in from without, be it a sentence which we hear, an object of vision, a scent or a touch, no sooner enters our consciousness than it is drafted off in some determinate direction or other, making connection with the other materials already there and thus interpreting it. The interpretation of these impressions or prompting events produces an emotion and in turn a reaction. The particular connections it strikes into are determined by our past experiences and memories. The whole process happens so quickly it generally creates an automatic feeling, without us even thinking about it. A prompting event doesn't have to be an impression from our physical environment. It can also be a memory, a thought, or even another feeling. It is the interpretation of the event that prompts the emotion, and an emotion creates an action urge.

Some, if not all, of my posts are done in an effort to deal with the emotions created by some prompting event in my life.

9/16/12



Srimati Radharani

Autumn Leaves
























Clint Hudson

9/15/12

There Will Be No White Flag

My whole life has been fraught with struggles, obstacles, and hardships. I had one strike against me even as I was born. Back in 1961 there was still a stigma attached to having a baby out of wedlock. I was a bastard child. To this day I don't even know who my Father was. On top of that I had an absent Mother. It was really not her fault though. She had to work at two sometimes three jobs just to have enough money to raise me. The responsibility fell to my Grandmother and young Aunt. Both my Mother and Grandmother are gone now and I miss them terribly. When my Aunt passes away I will be alone.

Shortly before puberty I realized that I had a second strike against me. Even before I knew what a homosexual, a fag, or a queer was, I knew I was different. I was attracted to the other boys in gym class and I was sexually active with two brothers that lived close to me. I was pretty much in love with the older brother who was three or four years older than me.

In my teenage years not only was I ostracized for being different, I became painfully aware of my family's poverty. I couldn't dress like the other kids. My activities were severely limited because we just didn't have enough money for me to do any extracurricular things. I was also too embarrassed to invite anyone to my home.

The only thing that gave me any direction was when I became old enough to work. I found work to be the only way I could ameliorate my living conditions. I worked hard for years but never got very far. The best I ever did was making it into restaurant management. Unfortunately to alleviate some of the pain in high school I had become addicted to drugs. Third Strike.

Bad decisions on my part caused me to become homeless several years ago. I was on the streets for about five years or so, wandering, lost. I've never given up though. I have fought the fight. Now I have a place to live. Granted it's in Government Assisted Housing but I've made my apartment a wonderful sanctuary designed for peace, harmony, and tranquility. A haven in the ghetto. I have to endure some pretty messed up neighbors but I'm used to that from my time on the streets. Once I get inside my apartment however all that fades away. I light my candles and listen to some great music and I'm truly home.

   

Casting A Circle

Face North And Say The Following As You Make Your Way Around The Circle Clockwise Three Times...


Use your Athame to "draw" the circle as you go around. It gives you a tool to help you visualize the circle as you are casting it. Most people use a dagger that they have cleansed. I use a Rowan Branch because it is said to protect and control the senses from enchantment and beguiling. It is a very magical tree used for wands, rods, amulets and spells.)



I usually have candles in the four directions that I light as I'm going around.



Maiden, cast your circle white
Weave a web of healing light
round and round the circle cast
joing present, future past

Mother, cast your circle red
weave a strand of family threads
sacre space shaal mow be boung
as I make this circle go round

Old Crone, cast your circle black
weave the wisdom that we lack
thrice the circle cast this night
now begins my mystical rite

I conjour thee, circle of power
be a boundary, protection,
and a meeting place between the physical and ethereal.
A guardian that shall preserve
and contain the power which I shall raise within thee,
wherefore do I bless and consecrate thee

By this time you should have made you way three times around the circle stopping facing North.
Take your Athame and raise your hands to the air. Bring your Athame down, visualizing a bubble that you are creating around the Circle. Say:


As Above

So Below


Facing North say:



Strengthen candle while burning bright

bind this circle tight tonight
candle burning bright
representing the element Earth
my circle tonight you will girth
I invite thee

Facing East say:


Powers of the East wind, Air

Breathe in us a hope to share
with loved ones who have gone before
that now we will unite once more
I invite thee

Remember to do this clockwise


Facing South:


Powers of the South and Fire
flame our passions, not our ire
guard us, guide us on our quest
in the future to be our best
I invite thee

Facing West:

Water and the western powers
let us know the strength that's ours
cleanse our minds and set us free
negative powers you now make flee
I invite thee

Facing North again:

Mother Nature, show the way
help us keep in mind each day
oh powers of the North and Earth
when there's death, there's rebirth
I invite thee

Now your Circle is cast. I usually spend some time meditating then I do a tarot reading for myself or anyone else that has asked me for one.

To close the Circle say these words as you are making you way around the circle counterclockwise. Use your Athame like you did to open the Circle.

Facing North:

Powers of Earth, I give thanks to thee
Depart in peace
Blessed Be

Facing West:

Powers of Water, I give thanks to thee
Depart in peace
Blessed Be

Facing South:

Powers of Fire, I give thanks to thee
Depart in peace
Blessed Be

Facing East:

Powers of Air, I give thanks to thee
Depart in peace
Blessed Be

Facing North again and using your Athame say:

Circle round, Now be unbound
As I make my way around

I now dissolve this sacred space and sen all powers back to place

Stay if you can, go if you must
with perfect love
and perfect trust

My work is finished for this night
Now I end my mystical rite

Going three times around counterclockwise. using your Athame, say:

The Circle is open but unbroken
So Mote It Be

The Circle is open but unbroken
So Mote It be

The Circle is open but unbroken
So Mote It Be














Russians On The Subway


Were You Born Between 1945 And 1965?

If you were have you been tested for Hepatitis C?

Hepatitis C is a liver disease that results from infection
with the Hepatitis C virus. The disease can cause serious
health problems including liver damage, cirrhosis, liver
cancer and even death. In fact, Hepatitis C is a leading
cause of liver cancer and the leading cause of liver transplants.
People with Hepatitis C:
• Often have no symptoms
• Can live with an infection for decades without
feeling sick
• Can be successfully treated with medications


Why should baby boomers get tested 
for Hepatitis C?


More than 75% of adults with Hepatitis C are baby boomers.
Baby boomers are people born from 1945 through 1965.
Most of them don’t know they are infected.
• Baby boomers are five times more likely to be infected
with Hepatitis C.
• Liver disease, liver cancer, and deaths from Hepatitis C
are on the rise.
• As baby boomers age, there is a greater chance that
they will develop serious, life-threatening liver
disease from Hepatitis C.
• Testing people in this generation will help them learn
if they are infected and get them into lifesaving care
and treatment.
• Early diagnosis and treatment can help prevent liver
damage, cirrhosis, and even liver cancer.


Why do baby boomers have such high 
rates of Hepatitis C?

The reason that baby boomers have the highest rates of
Hepatitis C is not completely understood. Most boomers
are believed to have become infected in the 1970s and
1980s when rates of Hepatitis C were the highest. Since
chronic Hepatitis C can go unnoticed for up to several
decades, baby boomers could be living with an infection
that occurred many years ago.
Hepatitis C is primarily spread through contact with
blood from an infected person. Many baby boomers could
have gotten infected from contaminated blood and
blood products before widespread screening of the blood
supply began in 1992 and universal precautions were
adopted. Others may have become infected from
injecting drugs, even if only once in the past. Still,
many baby boomers do not know how or when they
were infected. 


What should baby boomers know 
about Hepatitis C?
Hepatitis C is a liver disease that results from infection
with the Hepatitis C virus. The disease can cause serious
health problems including liver damage, cirrhosis, liver
cancer and even death. In fact, Hepatitis C is a leading
cause of liver cancer and the leading cause of liver transplants.
People with Hepatitis C:
• Often have no symptoms
• Can live with an infection for decades without
feeling sick
• Can be successfully treated with medications


CDC now recommends that 
anyone born from 1945 through 
1965 get tested for Hepatitis C. 

Is there a test for Hepatitis C? 

Yes. There is a simple blood test to determine if a person 
has ever been infected with the Hepatitis C virus. 
 
Hepatitis C is not easily transmitted through sexual contact.

The Best Kind Of Laughter


Wishing


9/14/12

This Is Why We Fight

Come the war
Come the avarice
Come the war
Come hell

Come attrition
Come the reek of bones
Come attrition
Come hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
And this is why
This is why we fight

When we die
We will die
With our arms unbound

And this is why
This is why
Why we fight
Come hell

Bride of quiet
Bride of all unquiet things
Bride of quiet
Bride of hell

Come the archers
Come the infantry
Come the archers
Of hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
This is why
This is why we fight

And when we die
We will die
With our arms unbound
And this is why
This is why we fight

Come hell
Come hell

This is why
Why we fight
Why we lie awake
This is why
This is why we fight
When we die
We will die with our arms unbound
And this is why
This is why we fight

So come to me
Come to me now
Lay your arms around me    
And this is why
This is why
We fight

Come hell
Come hell
Come hell
Come hell

The Decemberists

9/2/12

September In Yellow


Patsy Dunn

Fishing In The Online Dating Pond

I use words to bait my hook,
With precision do I work,
Using words to camouflage my baggage,
I cast my line,
And I wait,
Like any fisherman,
I wait,
I feel a tug,
I jerk my pole to hook him in,
I ease up and start talking,
Will he take my words as I say them,
The repartee a give and take,
The line a colloquy of desire,
He breaks free,
I'm left with my words,
My longing my only reward

Evanescent Dreams

I woke from a dream,
Lingering traces of the emotions with me,
The music of flutes and drums in my mind,
Dancing, jumping, twirling,
Suspended in the air,
I sing in the wind,
Evanescently


Ben

His sparkling eyes smile at me,
My heart dances with the wind,
I tell him he brought the rain,
A sign of good fortune,
We walk and talk,
He listens and replies with perfect words,
My soul is pierced with longing,
He takes my hand and guides me,
Taking me to the place I dream of,
His face, his chest,
All of him I touch,
Burning them into my memory,
There is no time,
The past, the present, the future,
All in a never ending now